[[my own epic drama, my own scripted page.]]

hon·es·ty
–noun,
1. the quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness.
2. truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness.
3. freedom from deceit or fraud.


i never realized how hard it was for so many people to be honest.

the quote "i'd rather be hated for who i am than loved for who i'm not" rings very clear right now.

i know there are a handful of people who don't like me... but i'm happy with myself, and that is what matters.

some people don't understand my train of thought, my actions, my lifestyle... and that's perfectly fine, but when you disrespect me over it, its no longer fine. short of my parents and grandparents, no one should be self-righteous enough to think that they're morally sound and know what i should and should not do. especially if you take a look at the decisions you've made for yourself. please don't act like you're my friend or that you're worried for my well being when you're proved tenfold that is not the case.

one of my hugest character flaws is trusting people far too easily. if you want to know the easiest way to get hurt, trusting people is definitely it. i was raised on honest principles, and automatically give strangers the benefit of the doubt that they were also raised with honest principles. you can say a million bad things about me, but i'm not a liar.

people can have such little tact, and in the end, i hope you realize that you're embarrassing yourself more than you're embarrassing me, or anyone else you're talking about. undoubtedly you display my words in a context that puts you on a high horse and knocks me down even further.

please don't act like you know anything about me, or even the situation(s) i've talked to you about, because chances are, details have been left out and you have no idea what you're talking about.

i'm literally sickened right now.
you run to me and act concerned, and then you twist my words to hurt me.
its because of people like you, i don't talk to the people i should confide in.


a public note to everyone: if i did something personally to you that made you not like me, then i apologize. i have no bad intentions, and i'd like to fix anything i've wronged. but if you dislike me because of my actions on a website, or because of something someone told you, then excuse me, but you can fuck off.


i'm done being upset over shitty people. and the sad thing is that this entry can be pointed towards so many different individuals that have hurt me over the years.

i've been so much happier than i've ever been with everything in the past few months... things are falling perfectly in to place for me and my future... i'm about to start my last semester of my college career, i have an incredible internship, and i will be damned if i let anyone ruin anything i have going for me right now.


i have been and will continue to erase people from my buddylist, my myspace, my livejournal, and my life.
and if you think you're going to get under my skin again, you're wrong. don't bother. i learned my lesson. i should have never permitted it from anyone, and i should have never let it persist as long as it did. i'm learning from what i've done and i'm changing the future.


thank you, but i'm done.
-stacymichelle.